
Summary: A 45-year-old woman, recovered from alcohol and drug misuse for 3.5 years, discovered she is autistic. Understanding her past behaviors in a new light, she’s navigating her identity and embracing her new truth.

The author reflects on their spiritual journey, emphasizing the painful self-discovery post-autism diagnosis. They explore themes of ego destruction, the search for identity, and the transformative power of suffering, ultimately finding hope and acceptance.

The author reflects on the importance of sharing love and connection amidst a busy life. Spiritual growth should guide us back to our hearts, emphasizing the need for human relationships over material achievements and distractions.

Reflections the day after writing My Dark Mornings. Love and self-care, combined with mindfulness the tides of anxiety and depression

9/8/2024 Dread. Doom. Fear. I wake. My eyes still closed. Shut to the world yet. Anxiety floods in. I don’t know why. Immediate dread pitted…

Vanessa emphasizes the criticality of discussing mental health, especially in recovery circles, where it is often suppressed. She challenges society’s discomfort with the topic, highlighting…

A sober alcoholic and undiagnosed autistic reflects on early recovery, realizing that alcohol created a protective persona. A journey of self-discovery reveals the impact of…
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